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I hate life. Not my life, just life. Things were finally going well for me. I got all of my major responsibilities out of the way last night and just had to wait for my SAT this weekend and prom next weekend. I honestly thought my SAT’s were on Sunday, but they’re this Saturday. With that slight mistake, according to my dad, that translates to me being an irresponsible, unmotivated, apath who settles for mediocracy. I did not ask to be born. I was never prepared for these responsibilities, nor do I want them. I just want to live my life and have. I’m not materialistic, I don’t ask for anything. All I want is to have fun and live in the moment. I hate that I’m going to college. What I love, as far as I’m concerned, isn’t even a field of study. Even if it is, it’s probably a minor with someone pointing you in their own direction. I’m constantly told, “do what you want. Live your life. Do as you please.” what people fail to tell you is that you can only ‘live your life’ for so long until what you’re doing is wrong and someone scolds you for doing so.

The last thing you want to do to me is throw a suggestion of suicide at me. “The only reason I’m not killing myself is because I don’t want you to deal with that.” I’ve been down this road too many times and have gone through a lot more than you have and never have I EVER contemplated suicide. You have so much going for you and you have your whole life ahead of you. You’ve barely scratched the surface and you just want everything to end.

I’m so excited for prom, everything’s finally falling into place and I can’t wait asfhfbgnttbcftedhgefju :)))

klinklang:

my hobbies include saying cheesy things to people and then realizing what i said was stupid and blushing for like six thousand years

Literally woke up with the worst case of the sniffles. Today should be a blast.

Alright give this some time to get up and running, I need to get my laptop fixed, but I can still post so that’s all that matters I guess